I know I have not blogged in forever, and I will give you updates on our crazy summer soon.... I think.
But tonight was worth a post, kind of an embarrassing putting myself out there post. I am in the Young Women's Presidency and we had a great activity planned tonight. It was to learn self defense. Yes, I know that I am 9 months pregnant but I was excited to learn some new tricks and will try anything even with my huge belly.
I worked very hard today to have dinner ready before I left. I was making taco soup, which Scott does not particularly love, so I had a breast of chicken left over from the other night and I BBQ'd him up some fajitas. He said he would be home at five, and I was getting ancy when 5:45 rolled around and I had not seen him yet (this started my irritation). Well he did make it home, I was hoping to show him the car seat and stroller I wanted to get for his approval (yes I do not have a carseat yet and I am due in 2 weeks, BUT I have the most adorable crib bedding!!) but there was no time , I was hot from grilling in 100 degree weather and as I am getting my things to go Scott ask me, "are you going to wear that?" (this is where I get upset) I said, "yes why not" He says, "well it looks like you have been doing housework all day." I try to hold back the tears and say, " we are doing self defense I am supposed to wear something comfortable." Then he gets the glare and I walk away. I admit I looked in the mirror, went to my closet, then out of spite did not change my clothes. I was going to show him.
Well, I am of course fashionably late at this point, but not worried because this activity is combined and surely they are still doing opening exercises with the young men. When I walk through the door all the Young women are there with some of their moms and they yell surprise. The activity was not self defense, but a surprise baby shower for me! I was so shocked that I had to walk back out side because I started to cry. I instantly realized my husband was trying to help me without ruining the surprise and I was so rude to him. Now I have embarrased myself not only for my very very casual dress but I was crying.
The leaders got a kick out of it, who knows what the girls thought. Oh well. It was a fabulous evening and I had a great time. Thank you beautiful Young Women and leaders for all of your gifts and the continual love and support you show me every day! You guys are the best!
I learned something tonight. That my husband does always have my best interest in mind and I should not be so quick to get defensive. He loves me and would never intentionally hurt me. Next time I will listen to what he is really saying and humble myself and follow his advice. I love you Scott. Thanks for forgiving me so often!
Hopefully I will get pictures soon and I will post them!